1 Aug 08

No Medical activities today. We have an appointment with Social Security at 2:30 today to see if I can draw disability. Remains to be seen. Robbi went to school today to set up her classroom for the subsistute who will take her place the first 9 weeks of school. I guess today would be a good day for just general reflections. I wish that I had not taken for granted the people, good health, and the opportunity to work that I had for 53 years. I wish that I had taken more time off for just fun, maybe some real vacations. Funny what comes back to haunt you. I wish this morning I was able to walk along Saline Creek at Clouds Crossing, maybe go for a swim and feel the shock of that cold fresh water when it hits you as you dive in. Stare up at those old cypress and oak trees as you float down the Creek. Maybe go north of the swim hole, find me a blow down in the creek and fish for those old bull bream. Fry them up right on the creek bank over an open fire just like we used to. Then ride back to the farm in the back of Granddaddy's old blue 63 Ford pickup. Or slip back to the Glades behind the farm. Go in while it's still dark, sit at the base of those majestic oaks, watch the day turn from black, to gray, to the glorious technicolor of a cold, Louisiana Fall Day. Watch the squirrels and wood peckers going about their business. Just feel you spirit rise as the sun rises and warms the day. And lastly, in my mind I see two little boys with their Daddy and PawPaw on a cold dreary day. But they are so happy, they are getting to cut down a cedar tree for a real Christmas tree just like olden times. The tree doesn't have the classic shape, but it is for them wonderful. I can still hear their excited talk all the way home to Shreveport. Those little boys of mine are fine men now. Soldiers and policemen, my pride and joy. But for just this moment I wish they were little again and we could go with PawPaw and cut down the Christmas tree.