Jeremy's Reading (written by Gary)

"These are the words of my Dad:

"It was a good day to die!!! Like my hero Stonewall Jackson said on his death bed, "I have crossed over the river to rest under the shade of the trees!" I have had a fine life filled with gifts from God.

I had wonderful, loving parents who raised me right. They sacrificed to give me the most wonderful childhood imaginable. They were always there for me and no matter where life took me they gave a safe haven for me to return to. I had two fine brothers that I loved, strong men who were fit yo ride the river with. They always covered my back.

In Robbi, I had a wife better than I deserved. A fit companion for life more valuable than gold or pearls. She was and is a true "Steel Magnolia" ferocious in the protection of her family. She gave me two wonderful sons, Jeremy and Mark. They are true American warriors. They were the joy of my life and my legace. Their wives, Jennifer and Rachel, are fit partners and companions for American warriors. Their children are my gift to this old world. In them my hope is entrusted for a better world.

My in-laws have always been there in times of trouble, never intrusive, but always available. They shared their wonderful children with me for which I am eternally grateful. My nephews and neices, what a treasure you guys were! Thanks for the fun and the laughs and the privilege of being "Uncle Dune"!

I was given the opportunity to serve with strong men who were decisive and knew how to make the tough decisions and take care of business. They also were always there in times of crisis and trouble. No man could ask for better friends and comrades. I had a career that was both important and satisfying. The Louisiana Guard was both an adventure and mistress. The soldiers I served with and helped train are the best in the world. We were and are a "Band of Brothers". The opportunity to lead and serve with such people is an experience I wish everyone could have. What we did was important and necessary.

In my life, I met two true Men of God for which I am grateful: Moses Mercer and Stephen Teal. They served as guides and examples to assist me on this journey. I only wish that each of you had two such God-sent men to help you.

To my family I say, "Love one another and get on with life. Cherish it, and take the biggest bite out of it you can." To my friends, "It's been one hell of a ride and I would not have missed a minute of it. I'm glad all of you were here with me to share it."

In the lonely hours of the night watch, in the special times, when the wild geese fly south, when the woodsmoke is sweet on a cold November night, when the children sing Christmas carols, at the first green grass of spring, in the heat of a Louisiana summer afternoon, when you hear "I'm so Lonesome I Could Cry" think of me and I'll be there.

For my epitaph just say, "He was a walking contradiction, partly truth and partly fiction, taking every wrong direction on his lonely way back home." Oh yeah, as you go through the rest of your life remember, "Don't let the Bastards get you down!"

I'm where I'm supposed to be now and when ya'll cross over the river, I'll be waiting there for you under the shade of the trees. It was a good day to die!

As Jesus said on the cross, "It is finished."

Thank you

There are far too many people who worked incredibly hard on our behalf in the last week for me to attempt to call names. I trust that everyone who is taking the time to check our blog has a connection. Your comments, prayers, cards, and visits have given us joy and strength. My gratitude is immeasurable. Our loss is forever, but our grief must not be.

I will close with Gary's words in the final post.
Robbi

The Cycle of Life

The cancer has won. Despite a valiant but grueling fight, Gary had to face the final defeat in that war Monday afternoon. He now rejoices in eternal victory throught Jesus Christ our Savior.

Arrangements are:
Visitation at E. J. Fielding Funeral Home in Covington, LA Thursday from 4:00 - 7:00.
Services are in Shreveport at the Kingston Road Baptist Church Friday. A short visitation will begin at noon with services at 1:00.
Burial will be at Forest Park West in Shreveport.

Some compensation for this loss had been provided by the birth of our second granddaughter. Mikaela Rene Hammett was born around 7:30 last night! Mother and daughter(s) are doing well. Mark continues to soldier on.

Love and gratitude,
Robbi

Daily Developments

I have not been able to maintain the daily aspect of the blog in addressing daily developments around here. Nothing major really: I have managed to develop a case of tennis elbow and Gary has had a round of nauseau. The hospice nurse has been to the house three days this week and I had to call the night nurse yesterday.

Gary is free of pain, but he complains of being confused. He is growing weaker and his feet have begun to swell. We're trying to use oxygen more often, but he will take off the mask in his sleep. It is becoming more evident that the disease is winning despite Gary's continued valiant efforts.

He makes such an effort to visit, today with his mom, Scott, Terry, and cousin Sheryl Ann. Tomorrow we expect Sandra and RJ, Ryan and Brent, and Bob. I know Gary appreciates everyone.

Gratefully,
Robbi

Lengthy Days

Because the meds have Gary sleeping a great deal, I am facing some quiet days. Fortunately, I have some good books, chores to do, and phone calls to/from you all. Unfortunately, Gary seems to me to be weaker each day and his appetite is not improving. Please know also that we tend to go to bed rather early. It takes him a while to get comfortable, and it takes me a while to get to sleep.

We had a great visit with Frank and David this morning. Gary slept through parts of it, but sometimes he just came up with a usually amusing comment that was pertinent to the conversation. It's like he's partially attentive. I guess he's making an effort. David had a truly nice print that includes seven pictures of the engineer group's work in Afghanistan that I can't wait to share with my students! I don't think I'll hang it at school with the poster of Saddam Hussein that Mark gave me unless they decide to let me teach Social Studies for a while!

Everyone around us is being thoughtful and supportive in so many ways. It does seem that I am having more difficulty focusing on tasks. Please know that we are grateful for every kindness, even if I neglect to personally express that. Life around here is just not normal, and I am sure it will take quite a while to find a new normal if there is truly any such thing.

Love to all,
Robbi

Little Things

Family members in the Houston area say they're appreciating little things. I really hope that everyone can learn that lesson without having to clean up after a hurricane or spend days without electricity. It truly is the little things like family, friends, sunshine or rain, or maybe a cool breeze that can bring joy. Take time to enjoy the little things.

All our children were here today, except Jennifer and we missed her. Jeremy and Rachel spent most of the day. It was nice of Rachel to go to the grocery store with me. Isabella put on a show while Mark slept on the floor again. (He's finally finished hurricane duty and will be resting at home on leave soon! She's talking in complete sentences, and many of them sound like orders. I'm obeying!) It rained all afternoon, but we thoroughly enjoyed the visit.

It was great to see Ron, Larry, and Ray today also. Sorry, I slipped out on you, but we did need the groceries. Hope you got home safely. Again, that's not an easy drive. Same to Ike and Sue who came yesterday. We are grateful and sure blessed to have such caring friends.

The days are a little more unpredictable as Gary is taking breakthrough pain meds a little more often. He still stays comfortable most of the time, but is sleeping more.

Thanks again for the visits, calls, and cards.
Love to all,
Robbi

Happy Birthday

Today is Gary's 54th birthday. It's been nice although he slept through much of it. He was able to eat at all three meals for the first time in a week. He visited with SGM Honeycutt and the chaplain from the hospice. There were numerous calls and a couple of cards, one special one signed "Isabella and Baby". There's nothing like grandchildren! Baby's will be the next day of birth that we celebrate! Only then will we know if it's granddaughter or grandson!!

Special thanks to Frank and the soldier who drove Gary's tractor (Sorry, I've forgotten your name). They mowed and trimmed the yard today and it looks fabulous. The rains from Gustav and Ike have left the grass green and pretty. The sore muscles from picking up have almost healed!

Glad to hear from Karen and Keith. Do you guys camp?? That's what we did after Katrina: camp and clean up! Sure glad you don't have damage.

Thanks for checking on us. We love you all,
Robbi

Blessings

This is an incredible time to be able to count our blessings, most of which are all of you, and morphene! I don't know if it's the disease or the meds that is causing Gary to sleep a great deal, but most of his awake moments are peaceful. Ocassionally he takes a coughing spell that sounds like he will surely choke or puke, but they pass without the afore mentioned unpleasantries. He is incredibly weak, but still doing all of his care, except the pick lines that I've been doing since they were installed. (Special thanks to Uncle Terry for the hand-held shower head!)

We were blown away when T and Jane called from the Sun Fire Station for directions to the house. We had a super visit with them Saturday. Thanks, guys, that's not an easy weekend drive, you know! It was great to see you. Our pastor and his son came over and finished picking up branches left by Gustav and Ike. For those of you that don't know, Preacher who blogs with us is Mark. He uses the call sign his Pawpaw gave him when he was much younger!

Isabella got to spend the night and then Vallie, Terry, and Tara were here for Sunday lunch. It was a busy weekend. Admittedly Gary was tired, but so grateful for your time and your love. He continues to enjoy your visits, and the dogs have actually quit barking and carrying on when folks arrive. It is helpful if you can call first, just in case hospice personnel are here, or if we come to the point of dealing with unpleasantries such as those named above. I'm not sure we will have advance indications when declining issues surface.

Again, thanks for sharing. I am convinced that your support is carrying us through this time that should be painful and miserable, but truly is not. Love is a powerful thing and our God is great.

Special prayers and love to our friend Jewel White as he faces health issues as well. Good of you to call. You and your family have done so much to make our coming to Bogalusa a success and we miss you.

Humbly,
Robbi

The Rest of the Story

Before I post our update, let me send our thoughts and prayers to family and friends in SE Louisiana and the Texas coastal areas. Our hopes are that you are safe and have acccess to and know how to use camping cook stoves! It is windy and overcast here now as the first bands of Hurricane Ike race across our area. To our wonderful National Guardsmen (especially SSgt. Mark) and other first responders (especially Deputy Jeremy!) all our love, our unending gratitude, and prayers. Stay safe and THANK YOU all!!

Now for my confession. I did not post the whole story from Tulane as we had family members to talk to. We did wait for results from the CT scan in the waiting area at the cancer clinic. They called us back again about 1 (We had had some lunch in the hospital cafeteria, yeccch.) The scan revealed that a tumor is growing into Gary's spleen, and from what we understand is killing that organ. That is the source of the pain.

I think we all know that an increase in the cancer with chemo treatments is not good. The BMT is not to be. The doctor has sent Gary home and set us up with hospice. Hospice personnel have beeen coming by the house for the last two days. They are being quite helpful.

At this point we do not exactly know what to expect. We did not ask the doctor to give us a time estimate, because I personally think she's been making guesses all along. Cancer is truly unpredictable and every person responds differently to the treatment.

Gary has been much more comfortable since he starting taking morphene Tuesday evening. He continues to weaken and has no appetite. He has enjoyed visits from Glenn, Rodney, and church friends along with the hospice personnel, so don't hesitate to consider coming by. Vallie and Terry are coming to an LSU game Saturday and we look forward to seeing them on Sunday. While I am overwhelmed and frightened my headache that had me unable to function yesterday is gone this morning. Special thanks to Ms. Jo for bringing my prescription from Bogalusa.

Thank you for so much care and prayer that continues to provide strength. Special thanks to wonderful nurses in every medical atmosphere that we've sought and received care. We know that our God is good, and Gary's life, as well as mine and yours we hope, are in HIS hands.

Praising Him,
Robbi

Tulane

After two grueling days on the south shore, we are home trying to recuperate. Exhaustion mostly. The doctor wanted to protect Gary's kidney's while using the contrast for the CT scan so they did IV fluids. The transplant coordinator called a little after 9:00. She said the scan was scheduled for 2:00 and asked if we could be there in an hour. Well no! It's a two hour drive. I rousted Gary, and we hit the road. That lady wasn't in the building when we got to the cancer center at 11:00. I spotted the doctor's nurse, told her what we had been told, and she got the show on the road.

At a little after 1, she came and told me I needed to go to admitting for the paperwork and meet Gary in radiology. After waiting 30 minutes, I was told that they were unable to make contact with our insurance company which is in Baton Rouge. I told them that the test had to be done, the insurance company would pay for it, and I would sign whatever was necessary. That lady left and I was able to get through to our case manager at the ins co., but my cell phone was breaking up. Gary showed up, another lady came out, I gave her the case manager's number and they FINALLY came back with the papers I could have been working on since 11!

Of course we waited over an hour for Gary to be called back for the scan. Before giving him the contrast, the tech pulled up the labs from Gary's previous hospital stay and came running out asking me for the labs from Shreveport. In our hurry to leave and thinking the doctor needed those papers not knowing these folks would I had left the report on the kitchen table. The tech went back, called the cancer center. The transplant coordinator came, hooked Gary up to more fluids, and drew more blood. Gary lay uncomfortably on that hard little table and we waited for the results. When they came in the kidney function numbers were normal, and the tests proceeded.

It was after 6:00 when the fluids finished. The doctor's nurse stayed late with us and arranged for us to have a room at the American Cancer Society's Hope Lodge in Metairie. Our appointment with the doctor was for 10 the next morning. We were called back for 11, and talked with the doctor but no one had read the CT scan. Gary got some new pain meds, and we came on home. I'll probably call Dr. Oubre tomorrow. We will be rested and, hopefully feel better then.

Thanks for checking on us.
Love to all,
Robbi

Home Sweet Home

I guess it was Thursday that we drove home. We just got up, ate breakfast, loaded the vehicles, and hit the road in some dreary weather. I-49 was flowing at the speed limit and by the time we got to Pineville the weather was beautiful. The rest of the trip was uneventful and we were home about 4:00.

The power was off. I heated left overs from Memaw's on the gas grill, and we laid down for a miserable night. I think possibly the heat had Gary coughing more than usual. I know that I was anxious about how he would fare in the heat, which actually wasn't bad since the day had been farely overcast and there was a bit of a breeze. The power came on about 8:30a.m. which was before we crawled out of the bed.

We were both worn out, but the cool air did make Gary more comfortable. I got things unpacked and called Tulane. The doc wants Gary to have a CAT scan Monday and we will see her Tuesday. Gary is having back pain and often is unable to get comfortable. He has taken the pain meds all week, although not as regularly as I think he should. He has absolutely no appetite and, of course, cannot eat if the pain is present when I get a meal ready. Maybe he's just finding the leftovers not appealing. I haven't been to the grocery store yet. I've tried to pick up the yard and ended up with sore muscles myself. We are a miserable pair.

Mark came by today. He does look tired, but otherwise is well. Sure enjoyed all the family we got to spend time with up north, and miss waking up to Isabella.

Those of you who will be heading to Houston please have a safe trip and carry our love and sympathies to the family there. I had hoped that Gary would feel like posting today, perhaps tomorrow. Appreciate hearing from everyone and hope to be spending more time at Tulane real soon.

With my apologies to our great friend Tall Pine Tree, Go away Ike!
Robbi

Heading Home (We HOPE!)

While the dreary weather appears to be set in, the spirits here are improving. Sunday evening Gary made an ER visit at Willis Knighton due to a fever, and yesterday had a follow up appointment with a Shreveport oncologist. He had actually talked to the transplant doctor at Tulane before he saw Gary. The BMT doc, Dr. Safah, wants to see us when we get back (she had said Thursday, but their clinic is not going to be able to open until Monday.) Blood tests at Willis Knighton indicated NORMAL kidney function. We have reason to be confident the BMT will proceed!!

Jennifer and I packed this morning hoping to drive home this afternoon, but the weather just wouldn't let up. We are planning to leave first thing in the morning. I've talked to a neighbor who says our house is undamaged. Word is that power is back on at our place, Mark and Jenn's, and her folks also. Jeremy is still without power, and he's been living that way since the storm! He's a trooper! Not hearing from Mark as often, but he is well and working hard.

We are incredibly grateful to Memaw, Mr. Billy, Vallie and Terry for putting us up in such wonderful fashion again. You are a blessing and we love you.

Robbi

from North Louisiana

We are really blessed to be, once again, moved in with my mother and Mr. Billy. We arrived early afternoon yesterday. The trip was incredibly difficult for Gary, but he looks and feels better today. Jennifer, Isabella, and Jennifer's mom are here. Rachel and her family are headed to Vallie's and Terry's. The fact that Mark and Jeremy have remained in harm's way is a bit unnerving, but they've chosen to serve. For any that might not know, Mark is in the Guard and has been sent over to St. Martinsville. Jeremy is a deputy sheriff in Jefferson Parish. He's working twelve hour shifts to keep Metairie secure. They continue to be my heroes!

Niece Tara who chose to stay in Baton Rouge: Be Safe and I hope you can appreciate life without electricity! Hopefully that will be the worst that it gets.

I believe that everything is secure. The dogs are all with us, somewhat subdued being on chains, but dry and safe! The only thing to do now is wait, watch, and claim God's promise that He will not dish out more than we can take. So, once again, we wait.

Robbi

Back in business

I was truly doubtful that we would have the new air card by now, but kudos to Sprint! On top of that we had amazingly purchased insurance on the thing so the replacement didn't cost us!! Just hope it lasts longer than that first one. Would you believe that the car part was under warranty, and that repair didn't cost us either! To have malfunctions, we've come off pretty good, huh?

Gary and I are sitting in our recliners watching the endless reports predicting the landfall of Hurricane Gustav. We are packed and will leave to drive to Mr Billy's tomorrow morning. I am only stressed when I think about it all. As long as I focus on one thing at a time I do fine. It is incredibly hard for Gary as he is physically able to do very little.

Yesterday he had his last dentist appointment, and then we drove out to the new Bogalusa armory. It is certainly a place the Guard can be very proud of!! Gary enjoyed visiting with the guys, but he came home and slept for the rest of the day.

His kidney function number is at 1.65. Praise God! The kidney doctor told us that he would be comfortable with the BMT when the count reaches 1.5. We could possibly be there by now if the improvement has continued. The blood work was done on Monday. Dr. Oubre faxed the report to Tulane and called the transplant doctor while we were in his office Wednesday but had to leave a voice mail. We don't exactly know the next move. We will do labs again Wednesday. Then I become a pest if I haven't heard from anyone. That's not at all something I enjoy doing , but we are so ready to get this show on the road.

Thanks for the prayers and cards. God is good.
Robbi

Update from Ta

Hey guys,

    As some of you know, Uncle Dune and Aunt Robbi's internet connection is on the fritz.  So they asked me to keep yall updated for a few days until they can iron out all of their technical difficulties.  Aunt Robbi said that they are feeling pretty good today, and have an oncologist appointment tomorrow.  That's the word for today.  Not much, but I'm betting that no news is good news.  

  Ta

Guess What! Our air card is dead. I am crawling through this on the dial-up connection using the desk top computer. It will likely be our last post possibly for a week. The Sprint IT person on the phone said we could have a new air card in two or three days. The person at the store that took the old card said it would be three to five days. Anyway, it will not be "Daily Dose"s for a while.

Today was not bad health wise. Today was miserable weather wise. We did go have labs drawn at St. Tammany, but don't expect to hear anything from them until we see the oncologist on Wednesday. Gary is drinking and peeing as instructed. His only complaint is major fatigue and occassional random pains.

Wonder what will suffer a malfunction tomorrow. Any guesses out there.

Still no predictions in our boy or girl question. I'm saying girl, but Gary calls me communist or terrorist or something similar!! Isabella told me yesterday that her baby will be Payton. (Did I spell that right?) Doesn't look to me like Jennifer will carry the baby into October. Mark and Jennifer appear to have everything ready in the new house. The wait is on!

I wish you all happy computering as we await our return to laptop internet.
Robbi

I have included a picture of my little Angel Girl, Mz Isabella Grace.

The day is over. Terry and Vallie have headed home, after spending the day helping 'Robbi with numerous and sundry things like cars in the shop, lawn mowers in the shop. Looks like Tropical Storm Fay may give us a break. Sure hope so. Except for a back ache, I don't feel too bad. Have to drink 3 quarts a day and spend the rest of the time in the bathroom. But at least it's a mission of sorts. In a little while will pop a pain pill and go to bed. Better living through chemistry. For some reason tonight, I can't get the words of an old Hank Williams hymn out of my mind, it goes, " On the resurrection morning, when the dead in Christ shall rise, I'll have a new body, Praise the Lord, I'll have a new life!" I would like to close out with a howdy out there to Brent Stephen. I dig your blog site Dude!!!

Good night Jeremy, Good night Marky, Good night Jennifer, Good night Rachel, Good night Isabella, O Well why not? Good night John Boy!!!

Near 8:00 pm Friday. At home, released this afternoon. Kidney markers still high. Doctors decided it would be easier on us to be set up at or near home. My onocologist Dr Oubre will take weekly blood tests, copies faxed to Tulane. If the markers don't come down, will probably be set up with Renal specialists on the Northshore next week. Everything is uncertain, and we just don't know. They believe the culprit to be the chemo, but what type damage remains and the effects remain to be seen. BMT is in doubt. We will be exploring other treatment options with Dr Oubre. The one thing we are all sure of is if given a reprive the Lymphoma will strike back hard. Vallie and Terry are here with us, so we are not alone and their presence is a source of great strength and comfort. Tomorrow or early next week we may have some information on blood donations. Hope all of you are well. Robbi and my heartfelt condolences go out to Michael and Linda (Caldwell) Lucas on the death of Linda's Dad, Otis. God Bless.

Dune

Near 9:00 pm Thursday evening. Still at Tulane. Results of medical tests have been less than encouraging. The kidney markers continue to show little improvement since yesterday. With each passing hour it looks more and more like the chemo has impaired my kidney functions. The term used most often is acute renal failure. Tests indicate today that my kidneys have about 20% of normal function. They are still running the fluids through me and watching. We don't know what options will be available, except if the kidney functions don't return, the BMT is totally out of the question. It has been an emotional, depressing, roller coaster day. Terry and Vallie are here with us. They drove in from Baton Rouge and getting TARA settled in .Pray for us and the strength to continue the fight.





Dune

Whew! Okay, how many of you suspect that something is up since no one posted to the blog yesterday? Perhaps we should become more random and not so proficient with the "daily" to minimize any worry among you!

Here's the deal: Although Gary was still weak and not feeling real well, we had an excellent visit with the transplant doctor at Tulane yesterday (9 a.m). We talked at length about the transplant, learned nothing new except for a tentative date in September. The doctor said Gary would need some blood, since he appeared dehydrated (again!) Then the transplant coordinator nurse took us off to do the vampire thing, and we waited. and waited. and waited.

The nurse brought us the copy of the CBC that the local oncologist wanted, and said she hadn't received the "other" yet so we were to sit tight. We did. She returned later to tell us some number was way high and she had to talk to the doctor to see what the plan was. Then the doctor's nurse came out looking for something and saw us. She questioned that we were still there, and had we seen the coordinator nurse. This nurse then informed us that they were admitting Gary. She had already secured him a room in the BMT unit. The high number is a kidney marker and it needed prompt attention. (I don't think it was noon yet.)

FINALLY about 2:00 I was sent to admitting to complete the paper work. Gary was miserable and I was angry. 3:30 we got him to the room where nurses has normal saline hanging and ready to go. They came to the room and took an ultrasound of Gary's kidneys, and told us the fluids could flush the kidneys and take care of the matter. "See you tomorrow" They later brought in a unit of blood, and we spent the night with some really prompt, capable, caring, and quiet nurses.

This morning Gary was feeling considerably better. The numbers in question had dropped from 3.9 to 3.3. (They should be around 1) The ultrasound was normal and the general consensus is that the chemo is the culprit. (DUH) They have continued with the saline and have given him two more units of blood. (I got a name to contact regarding donation, but obviously haven't had the chance to do that. Anticipate that opportunity.) If the numbers continued dropping at that rate, it would be another 24 hours to normal.

Gary is laying in the hospital plugged up to his metal dancing partner and I've come home since neither one of us had anything for an overnight stay. I drove out of the city just ahead of 5:00 traffic and across the causeway in dreary, rainy weather by myself. The road was wet and the rain was intermittent. Driving down Hwy 21 about fifteen minutes from the house, I saw the beautiful rainbow God sent. We're still claiming His promises.

All is well. Hopefully Gary will be home tomorrow morning. If not he'll be lying up there feeling lots better!

It has been a long four days. Can't seem to feel better. Started not to post anything. But felt should make an effort to do something even if it is just to post this site. Friday, I was asked a question that is hard to answer, the question was what do I think about these days? I could lay out the short verison and just say everything. But I'm not sure how honest that would be. I try to be positive and visualize getting better, but with limited success I admit. There are periods where it is easier not to think at all. I think about what death will be like, I visualize what heaven will be like. I wonder what the exact process of transition will be. I worry about the things my family is going through. I worry that I will cause more stress with my hardheadedness. I think about the good days in the past. And sometimes, I just cry. I wonder if Isabella will remember her Pawpaw Dune. I dread doctor's visits and the procedures. Lord knows they are trying their best. I read the blogs and think about the folks that support me and help me by keeping the news positive. I thank God for each of you and for the moments He provides that are free from the sick feelings. Not a very articulate answer, but it is the best I can do for now. Tomorrow back to Tulane, Wednesday back to Onocologist.

Dune

It's pouring down rain.

Hi! Me again. Today has not brought significant improvement for Gary. It has neither brought any new complaints. It's just a matter of dealing with the misery while the chemo does its thing I guess. It's a little lonely for me, as Gary sleeps most of the time. The house is clean, but I chose not to finish the yard. Felt like that was not an appropriate testimony to my neighbors. Although it's been overcast all day, the predicted rain has not come. Reckon it'll hold off til tomorrow!

Vallie, I sure agree that fresh cut green grass is beautiful. For the rest of you, I actually EJOY cutting the grass! I will soon mourn the end of another summer, but perhaps fall will bring us the BMT and see Gary's health improving. Keep sending up those prayers.

Must not be much happening in New Orleans today. The news has begun with a report on the arch diocese closing churches. Jeremy, can you truly attest to better weed in Orleans, or is that just an assumption since your getting the trashy stuff? Just wondered.

Chin up!
Robbi

Hi! It's been a pretty dreary day here with lots of rain. I actually climbed on the riding mower this morning and was almost half way through cutting the front yard when the rain started. I could get out there and finish now, but it'll be there Monday.

Gary has not felt well today. Last night he ate a cookie and I thought I had finally fixed something that tempted him, but alas it didn't carry over this morning. He is frustrated with the fatigue. We had both hoped that those side effects would be easing up by now. We know they will as the chemo works through his system. I think we've had a significant victory to be at home today since it was at this point with the last round of chemo that Gary was passing out and had to be hospitalized.

Oops, I didn't think to read comments before I began this post. Sorry. I'll let Gary respond in his next post.

Our only appointments next week are at Tulane Tuesday and back to Dr. Oubre on Wednesday. Sure hope Tulane tells us something definite.

Well, guess I'll go watch those Saints!
Robbi

Well we have made it through another day. Mostly just felt run down. Had a great visit from my cousin Patsy and her husband Greg on their way home from Canada. Really had a good time, they lifted our spirits. They came a long way to minister to us, I and I thank God for That!! To my Preacher man, hang in there bud, better days are coming. It's just crunch time right now for your whole family, it will be all right. Sandra and 'RJ thanks for your blog. Sandra I know that you have been there and it helps!! Happy to see a post for Rachael!! Good to hear from ya!! Hope ya'll's little get a way is going well. Rye, Tara I will be checking out your blog site momentarily. Will be sure the boys get your message. And of course My Man Terry, will give the advice a try. Hopefully the plastic forks, spoons etc will work without resorting to buttermilk, but who knows anything is possible. Hope this finds all of you guys well!! Thanks for your support and allowing me to share all this with you. It helps more than you guys know!

Dune

New Day, New Things, New Challenges. Jere and Rachel have a good anniversary vacation, see you at the end of the month. Terry and Vallie, if you didn't want the boxes you shouldn't have asked. But you are right will probably be the hit of the dorm. Another sick, sick day. Not much sleep last night, hope that goes better to night. We are both trying hard to keep our chins up and do what we can. Ike and Sue thanks for the cross, it is my intention to read 2 Thess 3:16 in total when my head clears. Dr Oubre my cancer doctor has checked out the blog site. Said he anticipated reading negative things about him. No Way Doc!! How can I be negative about the folks trying to save my life. I reserve the right to say what I want to about the chemo and meds!! Totally separate issue. Robbi is tired and has a headache, the stress I imagine is pretty bad, I'm not the best company in the world for her. But she is super, trying to take it all away from me. Starting to slip toward the maudlin now, will sign off for now.

Dune

Chemo is wicked, no other way to put it. It appears to me that the big issue this round will be food. Gary has no appetite whatsoever. He is making a valiant effort to eat three meals a day, and we have found (finally) a non-milk based protein powder. He lost ten pounds with last month's treatment and gained back six, so we figured this would happen. Between that, the fatigue, and a dentist's appointment (to remove the stitches) it has not been a banner day.

The rest of the story: In the last month, I have gotten a speeding ticket and a supboena for jury duty. I paid the speeding ticket, and got out of the jury duty with a letter from the oncologist and six calls to/from the judge's office. Yesterday, the sheriff's office called and said the check that i wrote them was not accepted. Turns out that does not mean it bounced. In fact they hadn't even sent it to the bank, but the Telecheck company does not have enough information to okay the check. Go figure! Oh yeah and I broke my glasses.

Are we having fun now?? If so, share some humor!
Robbi

It's 6:30 PM, we just got back from today's version of chemo. Really sick and tired. Not much to say but we are hanging in. Round 3 tomorrow, shots Thursday. Robbi watching me like a hawk. Says she can see the color draining from my face after this round. It feels like it. Well gonna sign off. God Bless You All! Ya'll don't worry we are in His hands.

Dune

It's around 3:00 pm Monday, we just got in from the first day of chemo. I can feel the affects of the steriods already. All of the blood work results were positive. I am not dehydrated and the treatments are keeping the various blood cells within normal and almost normal range. It has really been a rainy day it was raining when we left at 7:45 am and raining when we just got home. Looks to have been pretty steady. Temps are cool. I have some thank yous to say from this weekend. Thanks to Memaw and Mr. Billy .Thanks Mom and Scott, thanks to Paula for the great faitias. The flavor was wonderful and I ate a lot (which is a fine thing). Thanks to Mark, Jennifer, Jeremy, and Isabella you are my crew. It was good to hear all your voices and listen to you all laugh. Thanks to Scott and Mark the latest veteniarians. Beauty is back to her old self.

My Daddy always told us, that in the end the people you will fall back on will be your family and some good friends. He sure was smart, because that is exactly what's happening.

Hey Patsy and Greg wish I could be with you an take a look at those falls. Thanks for including me in your vacation. Vallie and Terry thanks for the weekend update. Sounds like the Northern Hammetts had them a good time. And Vallie you are doing a lot, you always have. Deb, wish I could have seen the hail. I saw those great photos of your little man Griffen, what a hoss!!!! Them kids know how to make some good looking babies don't they. But we ain't partial are we!!!! The rest of our week is pretty much took up with chemo through Thursday, and a dental appointment thrown in.

The visits this weekend were a pick me up for both me and Robbi. Tonight we chow down on some Ham (Mom brought me) and macaroni and cheese. Now that is a supper!!

It is a good day to fight the beast!!! God is Good, All the Time!!!! God bless each of you and your families.

Dune

It's 6:15 and Gary is asleep in the recliner. We've had another great day. Granny and Scott stayed through lunch and Jeremy was able to join us. He stayed much longer, and we all had a great visit.

It really has been a good week. (Now that's a picture of where we are when a good week includes two visits to the dentist's office for procedures! :-) We appreciate and enjoyed the company. The timing was just right for that. Unfortunately visits can sometimes be draining and challenging. Everyone has been so kind about calling first, and we are learning to say "now is not a good time". I thank you all for giving us that option. Please do not decide that you can't or shouldn't come for a visit because Gary is not up to it. Each day is different, so just give us a call anytime you are in the area. Good days need to be shared.

Since chemo is next week, we will be away from the house a lot, and I don't figure Gary will be feeling well. He certainly didn't with the last round, but these doctors do have a way of treating side effects, now that we know what could be a problem. I plan to ask the oncologist tomorrow what he will be doing differently!

Thanks again for sharing and our best wishes to all you students returning to school.
Vallie and Terry - empty nest does turn out to be a good thing! ENJOY.

Love to all, Robbi

Have had a good day with Granny, Scott, Jennifer, Isabella, and Mark. Isabella has been a card today. She took immediately to everyone and has really shown her sunny side. What a little con artist. Scott fixed faitas for supper and they were super. Just visited and played with the baby. No major physical complaints except for the weakness. Thank God for a good last two days.

Dune

Another busy day behind us. I see that Laura and Brent have joined us on the old blog. Welcome. Had a good visit from Mr. Sam Pepe today. he brought me some Italian bread and Black olives from Independence Louisiana. He is just back from a trip to Sicily where his dad immigrated from. We had a super good visit. Memaw and Mr. Billy made it in and we had a good visit. Had supper at Marconi Grill in Covington with Memaw, Mr Billy, Robbi, Mark, Jennifer, and Isabella. Jennifer and Isabella had just arrived home from Illinois. Had a good visit, but tired. Memaw and Mr. Billy head home in the morning. Tomorrow Mom and Scott will be down to visit Saturday and Sunday. Look forward to my time with them. Another good day down. More tommorrow.

Dune

Well another day done, two more medical procedures down. Went back to the denist and got two fillings and a temporary crown. Then had to go have blood tests at St Tammany Hospital. Got home late this afternoon to find two questionaires from the State Department of Social Security in reference to my social security disability claim. Filled them out, but what Beaurcratic bull. List your jobs for the last 15 years. Describe what you did. How many hours a day did you sit, walk, stand, type, stoop, crawl, lift etc, etc. Describe your day, from the time you get up till you go to bed. Do you care for pets, do household chores, fix meals. Lord what a mess. Got it done anyway. Would like to welcome my new bloggers today brother Travis Jenkins, and our very own Preacher. Of course the regulars keep me going Ike, Terry, Vallie, JereO. Tired as all get out, mouth is sore, but all in all another good day to be alive! Good to hear from each of you guys. More tomorrow.

Dune out

Robbi here. Just wanted to let those that don't yet know that I'm taking leave from teaching for now. I went in today and helped the new teacher get set up. I'm not sure when I'll be able to go back. That will depend on the transplant date and Gary's recovery. I think I'm going to miss teaching, but I have no desire to deal with the exhausting issues that so often occur. I am blessed to have this leave option, Please pray that the cancer will be gone before my leave is exhausted as I am just a year shy of being eligible for retirement.

Gary has had a very productive day while I was away. He's even cooked dinner! I know it's due to being almost a month post-chemo and taking the shot yesterday. Good days are to be used wisely.

Thanks for all the encouraging comments. You help keep us aware of what's up in the regular world out there!

Love to all, Robbi

Not much to report today. Mouth is sore from teeth extraction yesterday. Had to get a shot at doctor's office. More medical stuff this week. Just when you think you got it down you get a call and have two more things to do. We are presently sitting, waiting on the Sun Water Department to cut the water back on. No not a bill problem just working on the system. Hopefully it will be up soon. Today we got posts from some new folks. Hey Jeremy- I'm glad Steven Segall is not as fat in person!!! Welcome Angela to my magical mystical world or as my outlaw sister in law likes to say better living through chemistry. I used to laugh at old folks who always told you about their latest ailments, aches, pains, and symptoms; and now here I am devoting a blog site to it. Makes you wonder don't it.

I'll end with a philosophical thought.

Hug your kids, wives, grandkids, call your family tell them you love them, take down the fences we all throw up, don't wait for anyone else to do it. Go first, it'll make everyone feel better. Why, because time is fleeting and life is too short! Love, laugh, cry, and be happy while you can. Today may be all we have.

Love you guys!!!

Dune

It is around 5:30 pm, the teeth are pulled and I can't talk well. Some of you no doubt believe that is a good thing. Tomorrow have to go to Hammond and get a shot to help with the blood counts and anemia caused by the chem0. Sometime Friday, have to get blood work done for the chemo session next week. Got two posts this afternoon, one from Debby Mercer and the other from Terry. You are right Debby we need to make a date for when all this is over. Terry relayed that an old friend of mine CW4 Sam Kelly called him today asking how I was. Sam relayed to Terry that two years ago Sam had to have the BMT for cancer. He is currently cancer free and doing well. That sure makes me feel better about things. Got an email from my cousin Richard today, he sent me some great pics of his grandkids. One question Pete, how did you get such good looking grandkids. Well, I'll see you guys tomorrow.

It's about 10:30 am and I'm pysching up to go have some teeth pulled. A requirement before a BMT. I am humbled this morning by the posts I've received on the web site. Ike & Sue, Vallie, Furl, and Tara. It makes the days easier and gives me something to look forward to. Spent yesterday afternoon and last night with Mark. He and Ray Wissing his buddy took the boat and went fishing this morning. It was good to see him using the boat. Lord nows I haven't had a chance. Watched funny movies with him. I am reasonably comfortable today, just weak. Will have more later.

Dune

Well it's Sunday and I'm trying to get my spirit up to face another week. I fell back on several passages of scripture this morning. Psalm 46 verses 1,7,10 and John 14:27.

Psalm 46
1 God is our refuge and strength an ever present help in trouble.
7 The Lord Almighty is with us the God of Jacob is our fortress.
10 Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.

John 14
27 Peace I leave with you my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives.
Do not let you hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

The first time I heard Psalm 46 was on Oct 12, 2001 in the intensive care unit at Landstuhl Germany where we had just learned that Jeremy may not live. An Army Chaplain shared it with us. It strenghtened us for the days, weeks, and years to come. The hard part was and still is to be still and know that God is God. I picked up on John 14:27 in the writings of Robbi's Granddad Mercer. He related in the depression how things were tough and not going well. He went home for a short visit. While sitting in the yard a dove came and hovered in front of his face and the words of John 14:27 came to him. It gave him the strength to carry on. It too has strengthened me through the last years of turmoil and uncertainty. It would be so easy today to give in to the depression and fear. But I am reminded today, that my future and that of my family is not fixed by doctors, disease, or uncertainty. God knows when my time will come. Pray that he will give me the strength to see the race to its end. I hope each of you have a great day and a great week. We continue to need your prayers. May God Bless each of you!!!

In a little while Mark is coming to visit. It will be great to see him. Just some side notes
Tara and Rye I loved the spaghetti dinner shots of Owen on your website. Reminded me of when his Daddy was little he could make a mess too. Pete thanks for the call yesterday it meant a lot. Terry saw the pic of you and Owen with the horses reminded me of Gage, thanks for the update on the post. To Diane, Tim, and Patsy thanks for your posts and comments they mean a lot to me.

Saturday in Sun, LA

Not much happening today. Robbi worked on fence trying to keep the dogs in. I've just rested in my chair. Hot summer day outside. Tomorrow Mark is coming to visit. I think he is going to spend the night. Wants to use the boat to go fishing Monday. Jennifer and Isabella are in Illinois visiting her sister Carrie with her family. Just spending the day comfortably resting. No major complaints. I expect to spend the evening watching movies that Scott sent me. Hope you all have a good day too.

1 Aug 08

No Medical activities today. We have an appointment with Social Security at 2:30 today to see if I can draw disability. Remains to be seen. Robbi went to school today to set up her classroom for the subsistute who will take her place the first 9 weeks of school. I guess today would be a good day for just general reflections. I wish that I had not taken for granted the people, good health, and the opportunity to work that I had for 53 years. I wish that I had taken more time off for just fun, maybe some real vacations. Funny what comes back to haunt you. I wish this morning I was able to walk along Saline Creek at Clouds Crossing, maybe go for a swim and feel the shock of that cold fresh water when it hits you as you dive in. Stare up at those old cypress and oak trees as you float down the Creek. Maybe go north of the swim hole, find me a blow down in the creek and fish for those old bull bream. Fry them up right on the creek bank over an open fire just like we used to. Then ride back to the farm in the back of Granddaddy's old blue 63 Ford pickup. Or slip back to the Glades behind the farm. Go in while it's still dark, sit at the base of those majestic oaks, watch the day turn from black, to gray, to the glorious technicolor of a cold, Louisiana Fall Day. Watch the squirrels and wood peckers going about their business. Just feel you spirit rise as the sun rises and warms the day. And lastly, in my mind I see two little boys with their Daddy and PawPaw on a cold dreary day. But they are so happy, they are getting to cut down a cedar tree for a real Christmas tree just like olden times. The tree doesn't have the classic shape, but it is for them wonderful. I can still hear their excited talk all the way home to Shreveport. Those little boys of mine are fine men now. Soldiers and policemen, my pride and joy. But for just this moment I wish they were little again and we could go with PawPaw and cut down the Christmas tree.

31 July 08

You guys will probably think we are crazy, but the military has nothing on the medical profession for hurry up and wait. At 3:15 this afternoon we left my Onocologist office ready to get the teeth work done Monday, and get on with the Transplant procedures. At 3:25 we got a phone call from Tulane. The PETSCAN showed reduction of the cancer, however Tulane wants me to go through another round of Chemo just to be sure. Chemo is scheduled out patient 11-14 August. How far this will back things up, I don't know. I just don't know what to think anymore, except that I am glad ya'll have all decided to take the journey with me via this blog. I got comments from Terry, Ronnie D, Carl & Diane Thompson. It means so much you just don't know!!! We are in good spirits and thankful for each day, God gives us, as well as thankful for each of you.

Gimlet

30 July 2008

Antother day with the medical professionals has come and gone. Went to St Tammany Hospital to receive Blood platelets. It took a long 3 hours. We finally got out and on the way home at around 1 pm. Tomorrow will be blood draw and then Doctor's appointment with Dr Oubre at 3 pm. The blood work will tell if I can have the required dental work for the transplant to go forward.

A lot of folk continue to ask about being a donor for the Bone Marrow Transplant. The odds are just to great that anyone will be a match. Matches are only in in the 30% range. They have harvested my own stem cells and will use them to do the transplant. Everything is dependent on the PETSCAN taken yesterday, if the cancer has advanced then the transplant will not occur.

All else is fine here. Robbi is cutting grass and trying to stay busy. Needless to say keep the prayers coming. Will close for today.

Gary

The PET scan is completed after a trip to Baton Rouge on a day of amazing traffic matters. On our drive over this morning we listened to radio reports that an alligator on the I-10 had created a four to five mile backup. I watched the noon news in the waiting room while Gary was being scanned and learned that I-12, the highway we do travel, was closed due to a fatal accident. We drove back I-10 to laPlace, I-55 to Hammond, I-12 to Covington. Not a hard drive, but loooong! We have been especially blessed when it comes to making the drives and have not been part of any snag as of yet.

Our day had to begin early for a stop at St.Tammany Hospital. No, not another emergency. Gary's platelet count was low when we were at Tulane Friday. This doesn't mean a problem except that he has to have teeth pulled Monday to pass the required dental screening. They told us to check with Dr. Oubre, the oncologist in Mandeville. I called yesterday and they took care of it: 1) trip to hospital today for typing and matching; 2) trip to hospital tomorrow to receive platelets, i.e., transfusion; and 3) trip to hospital Thrusday for CBC followed by appointment with Dr. Oubre. There goes the week!!

It is our hope that while Gary is taking his transfusion tomorrow, I will have time to go by the school board and turn in my application for leave. I talked to my principal yesterday. The request is for me to be off the first eight weeks of school, returning on Oct 7 (I think - if that's the Monday.) It's sort of a random choice, based on the hope that the transplant will take place in August, and the fact that all grades necessary for that first report card will be given by the new teacher. The ninth week will provide the students and myself some transition before I take any significant grades.

Let us all pray that the scan shows less cancer and Gary will not have to undergo any more chemo before hospitalization. We don't expect to know before Monday. The next appointment at Tulane is Thurs., Aug 7. If everything is good, transplant will soon follow. Hopefully we will be given some type of calendar, and be able to make final preps.

Love to all and keep praying as we keep learning!
Robbi

Thank You Tara G.

I would be remiss if I did not thank Tara G or TA TA for fixing up the blog for me!! Thanks Babe, I Love You.

Dune

28 July 2008

Well today has been quite an event. Tara and Vallie departed for home after working cleaning the house all week end. They took Dixie with them to keep her while all the medical stuff goes on. Broke my heart to see them go. I guess it would be unmanly to admit I cried, but so what I did. We have PETSCAN's tomorrow to determine if the BMT is a go or not. So much stress it is hard to imagine. Keep us in your prayers as we continue on this journey. Robbi has really been tremendous and I can only guess how she keeps things going. God is Good! All the time!

Dune Out

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Hey guys,

     This is Ta, and I'm just posting this as a test.  Hope it works so that Uncle Dune and Aunt Robbi can keep us all updated on what's the latest.   Love yall!

   Tara Glynn